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To explain, I wrote this while I was suicidal years ago and wrote a song basically sketching out what I pictured when I thought about suicide. Lyrics: That smile is pasted on your lips Don't even try to fool me I know that smile is just a fake I know that you are just trying to keep me alive But it just won't work because the feeling's just too deep In my soul There's no way that you can stop what I'm doing It's just in my blood There's no way you can stop me The knife is already Digging deep in my wrist I know that smile is pasted on your lips Don't even try to fool me I know that smile is just a fake I know that you are just trying to keep me alive But my eyes close And my breath lessens And I can feel life edging away from me As I breathe my last I hear your sobs Of sorrow and grief As I Die

Written back in 2008. Lyrics: The world is laughing at me Me and all these tears I can't help the way I cry Every time he is near He's just so beautiful But he doesn't even know The way that I feel when he is around me But I can see the rest of the world laughing The world is watching me like a movie Telling me to just go kiss him They are looking at me like I'm an idiot For not going after my love What should I do? He's just so beautiful I can't even imagine him loving me Why would such a man as him Love Something so ugly as me He is so beautiful What do I think I have the right for The right for? Do I really have the audacity to love him? Such a beautiful boy As him?